life must go on...
since childhood i know that i am different from the real man's world but i always deny it sometimes it may cause of an argument with me and my family... and finally i accept the the fact that i am a gay....

in line with this, i did something that people always wanted me to be specially in time of flesh calls...and now, i admit that i also had a virus that anyone dont want to have. i was diagnose HIV virus carrier last september 2008.

until now im still searching for the people that i can lean on... i didnt inform anybody about my situation even my immediate family...

is there somebody can help me???

please...